Monday, April 13, 2009

Sometimes change only seems scary at first...

This shot is from a wonderful night we spent at the beach last month. We decided to get away for a night, just the four of us, which we need to do more often. The photo is of Haystack Rock- it was so beautiful with the blue skies and menacing clouds that were polite enough to wait to dump until we went back in. Here is the same rock using my low tech trick of putting my sunglasses over my lens. Not bad for a cheap pair of sunglasses. The day after we got back from the beach I was laid off from my job. I was frantically trying to get a high profile last minute project fine tuned and off to the factory and was pulled aside by the VP who then looked at me on the way to the conference room and said "It's not good!". Really? The man has few social filters so I didn't expect more out of him but it made me laugh later. I was the only part timer there so I knew it was possible but wasn't really expecting it as things were looking o.k. just then. There was a momentary oh wow! feeling and then just calm. Honestly the place had become so toxic and I know I would have never chosen to leave on my own given the economy. A week later I was at the Dr. and my blood pressure was 20 points lower! I took that as a good sign that it had to happen. I am nervous about the fact that I am jobless in a horrible economy but I have learned not to freak out too much over the years ( I have done a lot of freelance which is not always stable) so I am hoping to keep my calm and find my way. I am taking advantage of the time to tackle a few projects I have wanted to do for about 5 years that will hopefully lead me to a career out of big corporate design. It is scary, but it can be good.
It also gave me time to tackle some health problems and as a result I had my wisdom teeth out about a week ago. I was having chronic excruciating pain from a bad nerve that the Dr's thought was in my ear. I almost got ear tubes! At 39! That just didn't seem right! Well, it wasn't right and without those teeth I am feeling so much better. Sore, but healing sore and not what the %&%$@!! is that pain from! sore. It has been an interesting month with a lot of upheaval but I feel good. It it wonderful to be able to focus more on my family and the dog is over the moon that he has me home with him. I am finally taking those walks everyday that I have been craving. So I am back and ready to see what happens next.

7 comments:

Bella Art Girl said...

Thank you for sharing. 2 things came to my mind as I stumbled over your words:

1. I know that rock - Haystack Rock...have visited it many times over the years

2. On hearing of your job loss I was once again feeling a moments tightening of the breath as we struggle in these hard times. But then an exhale as I heard you speak of how this, like so many things that happen in our life, is an opportunity. I hope you find what you are looking for and that, in the searching you will find more than you could have hoped. My thoughts, hopes and prayers are with you.

French Knots said...

It's such a shock but as you get your head round it other avenues will open. I was made redundant 2 years ago from a job that I would not have had the courage to leave even though it was making me ill. Life is now very different away from the corporate world, a lot less money but a better life. What I'm trying to say is that you are right to look at the positives.

Valerie said...

Is that at Cannon Beach? Is it called Rooster Rock or Haystack Rock or are they actually different? Man, you're making me want to come back to Oregon for another visit! It's been two years since our last visit, and I'm dying to come back. :)

Lori said...

Sorry about the joblessness... but, as you have discovered, there are some other lovely things that come about too. And what good timing... right at the start of gardening season!!... which is also blood pressure reducing.
Lori

Paula Prass said...

Wow, you are handling this so well. You did a great job of sharing all that. I felt like it was happening to me. May you have unexpected blessings come your way..more than lower blood pressure.

laurie magpie ethel said...

Good for you for finding the silver lining in the job loss...sometimes it takes something like losing a job to really get your life back in a sane direction. Hope the wisdom tooth heals soon (I had one out in January...no fun)
enjoy the spring weather!

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